Utterly and Completely

To be utterly and completely in love with someone and yet know that you both need this space is so hard. To just want to drive over there and crawl into their arms, yet know that it will not be good for either of you. We both need this space no matter how much I miss him. It just is so hard.

Finding my inner Miss Sunshine xo

Today is a day just like any other, although today, just like the past couple of weeks I find myself suddenly and scarily alone in this world after my long term relationship with the boy of my dreams ended. I'm told this is one of the hardest things I will ever have to experience in life so I decided to document the next couple of months, mainly for myself so I can look back and also to maybe help others if they just so happen to stumble across this blog.

I probably made the biggest mistake of all in my relationship and that was to rely solely on my partner for happiness. He was ultimately (and still is) the only person and only thing in this world who could make me happy. So this blog is a diary of my journey to find myself again, to find happiness in myself - to find the little miss sunshine in me.